Frozen In Time 及时行乐

EMO-ing

I discovered 4 things this week:

1) Someone was diagnosed with cancer immediately after giving birth.
2) Someone whom I thought well of has changed.
3) Someone is really just a fantasy.
4) Someone whom I thought has a happy family is not so happy after all.

Well, well, whatever will be, will be......

Powerful Power Fool

It's scary,
what power can do to a person.

It's scary,
what a person can do for power.

Power,
eventually wanes.

Powerful,
as you are.

Beware,
that you don't become a power fool.

因为爱不是占有

A在不知不觉中爱上B， 但知道自己并不适合B。 A知道B喜欢的是C， 也觉得他们很登对。 C已有了男友， 但常常被对方伤害。 A希望C看得出B对她的好并给B一个机会。 为了好友， 为了所爱的人， A愿意退出。。。

《退出》

白天黑夜没有分别
反正心情已乱成灰
怎么都无法分明

蓝天白云没有意义
你只在乎对方感受
怎么不懂得爱自己

吵吵闹闹 分分合合
有人一直默默守候
难道你感觉不到

他愿意为你 试着努力 去改变他自己
就算失去自我 道别从前 也不惜一切

我愿意为他 试着努力 去忘记他的好
就算再多困难 再多不舍
我还是可以 放弃他


昨天今天或是明天
不可能的事 不会有改变
不用时间来证明

谎言借口 没有理由
你在对方心里算什么东西
让你一再受到伤害

来来回回 曲曲折折
有人在你身边从不曾离开
你怎能无动于衷

他愿意为你 试着努力 去改变他自己
就算失去自我 道别从前 也不惜一切

我愿意为他 试着努力 去忘记他的好
就算再多困难 再多不舍
为了两人幸福我可以

我虽然可以 为你和他 坦白面对自己
但还需要时间 需要勇气
去面对现实

他可以让你 找到快乐 重新认识自己
只需一次机会 你会发现
最值得爱的人 就是他

从前的你到哪去了？

你从不赞成说谎骗人。
现在呢？

是不是一旦踏入社会，
就会渐渐丢失个人道德观念？

生活在现实社会的我们，
是不是只能如此地悲哀？

死神の精度

真正的死亡会是这样吗？

如果知道自己遇见了死神， 应该感到庆幸吧。 至少知道自己的时间也许已经不多了， 可以好好去规划一下剩下的日子。

我一直都相信生死是注定的， 没有“为什么”， 而谁也没法改变些什么。 也许当一个人完成了他来到这世上应该完成的任务， 真的就是该走的时候吧。

死神应该不会这么快找上我吧。 因为我还没找到生命的意义。。。

Buenos Aires

It's been quite some time since I last watched KBS World (for those with SCV, it's on Chn 173). There was a period of time when I watched alot of TV (told you I was a 宅女) and this was my most-watched channel. The programmes, especially variety shows are pretty interesting and in comparison, what we are watching on free-to-air TV is crap!

Anyway, I decided to stop absorbing Chn 8 drama crap and switched to KBS instead. Had a good laugh while watching this show "Two days and One night" about six celebrities going on a road-trip around Korea...

Q: What is the capital of Egypt?
A: ... Pyramid!

~Faint...I wonder if it's for drama effect.

Haha I learnt that I am almost as "knowledgeable" as those celebrities. Offhand, I can't remember what's the capital of Netherlands & Canada! And here's something totally new to me: Buenos Aires is the capital of Argentina.

才女， 美女与宅女

Convo on msn...

Friend: "I think you are a 才女..."

(Thank you leh, first time got people say I'm a 才女!)

Me: "I don't want to be 才女 leh, I want to be 美女..."

Haha actually, I'm only a 宅女。

Achievement

I am so proud of myself for covering almost 10km today...about 6km of run plus 4km of walk! I feel a sense of achievement!

And I hope I can also feel a similar sense of achievement soon with regards to my PI report. I spent almost the entire day working on it. It's almost there but not quite. I still have to edit edit edit, to rephrase my words in a more politically-correct way.

Well, I would try my very best to leave my heartfelt comments for the evaluation of the organisation at the end of PI. Haha I would definitely do my part to prevent future NTU students from being conned to this place.

Bad pronunication or hearing problem?

I said "girl and guy", referring to the number of kids the lady boss has but others heard me saying "go and die". What a great world of difference!

Sometimes, I guess it's neither bad pronunication nor hearing problem. We tend to have some kind of preconceived ideas of our own and as such, interprete words the way we want them to be. In this case, I suppose everyone hopes the bosses are cursed!

最近， 有位朋友因得不到答案而感到很困扰。 听着他诉说心情， 我想到自己在四年前写的一首歌。 他此刻的心情应该就是这样吧。 能够鼓起足够的勇气寻找答案的确不容易。 因为很多时候， 答案未必是我们想听到的。 得到答案可能换来短暂的痛苦或永恒的幸福。 但无法得到答案， 结果肯定是一辈子的遗憾。 朋友， 你自己决定吧! 这首歌，就献给所有在寻找答案的人吧!

《答案》

他就在眼前
模糊我视线
不知从何开始
他已经住在我心底

他就在身边
却如此遥远
要到什么时候
我才有勇气说出口

当他转过头微微笑
我感觉我心在燃烧（溶化）
这种莫名感觉我不知道
是句号还是问号

当他转过身走远了
我脑海都是他影子
这种难受感觉我不想要
却只能默默在我心中
没有答案

也许这些日子
你和我心中都有答案
只是不曾说
彼此害怕会受伤

You _ _ _ _ _ Me Up

You Wake Me Up

You Lift Me Up

I had a good laugh at myself for getting the song title "You Raise Me Up" all wrong.

Women should have special rights, right?

I beg to differ.

"You should know your rights!"
Such a reaction from the ridiculous lady boss.

What rights? Rights as a woman? Even if I was the one who paid the cab fare first, so what? Woman cannot fork out money meh? No wonder there's still no gender equality till this day and men always say women are over-sensitive.

I agree that some women can indeed be rather demanding and unreasonable, having the mentality that it's only right for men to do certain things for them. And ironically, even as the men swear and curse, they actually like women to be this way and are more than willing to succumb to the demands of women, that is, pretty and cute ones of course.

Well, I'm neither, and being just a nobody, I never expect myself to have any special rights as a woman even though gentlemanly acts are of course much appreciated...

Pattern Zui Zui 的 Ji Siao Gia

I was jogging my last round, when......

"Can I jog with you?"
*jog...jog...jog...*
"Bye bye."

Haha I was so amused by that ji siao gia ! I think he was just trying to "pull some stunts" to entertain his girlfriend!

掩饰

在你面前， 我只能装作不在乎。
用沉默、 用笑声，
努力麻醉自己。

应该不会有人懂，
但直觉告诉我，
你好像都看穿了吧？

那些关心的话语；
请不要因感到抱歉，
才勉强说出口。

I AM SO MOTIVATED

I am starting to count down again. The last time I wished time would fly was in February. And I would say time did fly. It's been 3 months since and great, I don't think I've done anything really constructive.

The lack or absence of job satisfaction is making me feel abit on the down side recently. I can't seem to find my worth and I've got to admit that anyway, I feel that it's not worth it to do too much.

Well, well, well perhaps in the first place, to get a sense of job satisfaction is not the reason why I ended up here. There must be a 101 other reasons why I'm wasting six months of my life here.....

2008。5

已是五月了， 半年快过去了； 我却突然发现我书架上那周杰伦的月历仍停留在一月。

四个月过去了， 而我又做了些什么？ 怎么感觉上自己就算进入一个新的环境也似乎无法成长？ 不知从什么时候开始， 总觉得心里有一层越不过的障碍， 一种莫名的抗拒感； 但我说不上自己在害怕些什么。

很快的， 我必须走出这个熟悉的“新环境”， 再次回到已感觉陌生的“旧环境”。 希望到时候， 我所熟悉的不会感觉太陌生。